Monday, February 09, 2009

kmfba

You don't need to be a rocket scientist (or high school graduate) to know that I am fat. There's a definite reason I don't post many pictures of myself, it's because I don't like how I look.

Eight years ago I weighed exactly 40(!) lbs less than I do today. And it's not like I gained those 40 lbs over the course of eight years. I gained 20 lbs before Dec '02, and another 18 lbs before my wedding in Sept '03. Since then I have gained even more weight, lost a little bit, had a baby and lost most of the rest (I'm 2 lbs from my wedding weight). So I'm back to where I was five years ago, except now the weight has been firmly attached to my entire mid-section for five years. And it's pretty comfy there.

But today I serve my spare tire eviction papers. I'm so over it.

I want to wear cute clothes again. I don't want to shop in the plus (AKA butt-ugly) dept anymore. But mostly, I don't want to be the fat mom.

My current plan is to just go slow. I'm still nursing the wee man, so I can't do any super-drastic calorie slashing; that wouldn't work anyway because I am super-duper hungry. all. the. time. Right now I'm getting rid of the snack foods in the house. That means the case of lunch size chips that J had to have at Sam's Club are going to work with him. So is the sleeve of Oreo's I bought today (why??). And I'm going to make sure I always have some yummy veggies and fruit prepped in the fridge, because I like veggies and fruit, but it just always seems easier to grab something else. And I'm going to work really hard to eat when I am actually hungry and not when I'm stressedboredhappysadtired.



And I'm joining Tena's group, because it just sounds like fun :)

Wish me well!

19 comments:

Stephie said...

Good for you! Best of luck and know I'm cheering for you!

Susan in the Psych Ward said...

Eviction notice.... that made me crack up!!! We're gonna do it, girl!!!!

Tenakim said...

yay- so glad you're in! Also that you linked up because I had a hell of a time finding your blog- after a comment you left, I kept clicking your name and it said 'page not found'- so I'm following you so I won't lose you again.

ps- I'm hungry

Erika said...

good luck, sweetie. i've been on a rollercoaster of weight my whole life and have my own frustrations. it sucks.

kick butt!

Annie said...

Welcome to the club!

Y Garcia-Smith said...

Good luck! You'll do great :)

AJ said...

Good for you! I am so glad that it's almost fresh veggie season! Okay, we still have like almost 2 months for fresh asparagus, but I am counting down!

JR and I were talking this weekend about bumping up the health factor of our diets and increasing the veggie intake. One thing I did was add frozen chopped spinach to the homemade pizza sauce I made...since it's added iron I cut down on the fatty meat:) I need to get Jessica Seinfeld's book to find more ways to add them in.

Kara said...

Her blog is great. I will now be a devoted reader :)

And also, Good for you!! I know you can do this as you can do anything you put your mind to. I find it best to wash veggies/fruit the minute I get home from the store. If I don't then it goes bad. I bought some tomatoes and now they are rotten because I didn't wash them immediately.

Keep us posted!!!

Jen E @ mommablogsalot said...

Good luck! I know you're going to do great!

Soxy Deb said...

Eviction notice!! Priceless!

I too joined the party. I'm just making the rounds to wish everyone good luck. I think with each of us cheering each other on, we can SO do this. And lord knows, we all sound ready and tired of being fat.

Look forward to reading your progress!!

randi said...

Good luck. I know you can do anything you put your mind to! We're always here to encourage you!!

Amanda Leigh said...

Good luck :D Not that you need it. Sounds like you have a good plan in place!

Diana said...

I totally know how you feel!! Ever since Bret stopped breastfeeding, I've gained 10 pounds. Damn...

Kathy said...

I do wish you well. a month ago we brought a treadmill to help me shed a few. So far I've fallen off of it twice.

Allison said...

GOOOOD LUCK! It can be fun (sometimes) to work out and push yourself. Sometimes not fun, but you have a cool group and your blog to help you through!!!

Kara said...

Her swim teacher asked if Cambrie could "demonstrate" for the H&G show that will be that weekend. He would like to have different age groups and Cambrie would be the floater/infant. It isn't for sure yet. I'll blog more about it once I find out more details.

Laura said...

Yay for you! YOu can do it! And once you do, will you show me how? ;)

heather joyce said...

Good for you and good luck! I need some willpower as well.

Amy Amy Bo Bamey said...

Well I hope your fist week is going well. I am trying to stay on track with this. I hope we can all support each other :)